Bad faith is a concept in existentialist philosophy coined by Jean-Paul Sartre and Simone de Beauvoir describing the habit that people have of deceiving themselves into thinking that they do not have the freedom to make choices for fear of the potential consequences of making a choice. Commonly it is understood to mislead or deceive another.
In the last year, I have experienced a significant amount of upheaval in my personal life. My adopted mother, from whom I have been estranged, became ill with dementia; her 86 year old husband, my adopted father, started confronting his own end of life insecurities, and for the first time in 30 years I started to spend time with them both. Out of this has come Bad Faith, my first photography book that is in direct response to the emotional and psychological experiences in my life.The title refers both to decisions made by my mother throughout the course of her life, as well as fears I have about my relationship to my creative output. Do I have the right or ability to make what I want to make? Will it be accepted or acceptable? Who will be its audience? What if it is not successful, will failure be harmful? As a creative person, I'm sure that this line of thinking is one that you can relate to.
You can help by being a part of the process of producing Bad Faith, this 80+ page photographic response to endings, loss, mortality, the echoes of a semi-religious childhood, and mid-life fear of waywardness from one's early intentions.
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